Online shopping.

Dad: Are you done with your clothes shopping for CNY?

Me: Yeah I've got enough. I'll get another parcel tomorrow. Bought a top online.

Dad: Don't you worried if the top is secondhand from the dumpster? You know it can be the clothes used by a deceased....And when you wear it, it's gonna haunt you.

Me: -________-

2010 shall never be forgotten.

I finally realized that my intention of trying to blog more expressively has pretty much failed :x

Obviously, I like keeping things short and call it a day. Yikes. I hate people who blog like that and now that I'm doing it myself LOL anyhow, to celebrate the first day of 2011 where every new year must have a new beginning, I'm going to write without putting a barrier in between my complex mind and this blog post.

I don't know who would actually take time to read this entire post. I am writing it to keep track of the highlights in my 21 y.o. life.

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What 2010 stored for me; I will make this quick and simple. This year will be the most drastic year that I've been gone through. So much for being an adult; my first year of adulthood wasn't easy and smooth-sailing as I expected. It was "chaotic", I would say. 

The early of 2010 was really rough for me. It wasn't easy but I am really glad that I went through the obstacle and in fact, I grew up into a better person through the hard way. I am really thankful to everyone who chose to stayed by my side when I was at my worst state and could not stay strong enough to actually just flip my hair and pretend nothing has happened. I wish I could pretend to be cool like that but if I did, I won't learn anything. So anyways, I love you all the most.  

Verdict: I am a more optimistic person and I have lower expectations on people around me. It's good. But the not-so-good part is uhm, I'm a meaner person now hehehahah. Yes I know. I am still mean and witty and funny. That's what made me unique so if you can't handle me please don't tell me I need to grow up and be a more serious person or or try to tell me I will actually break the law. LOL?

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Alongside with the above mentioned difficult phase I'm going through, I was actually stuck doing my internship in a company for my course. It was 3 months. It passed by in a blink of eye, I'm serious. I've seen a lot of places, people and also situations. It taught me that there are so many more things in the world that needs my attention rather than just putting all my goddamn effort on a person. (Not being biased or anything, just saying, you know.) I know it's sad that I learn the hard way but oh wells. Better too late than never. ;) I reconstruct my dreams and passion again. It was a good change and a new phase in my life. I like new phases! But to be honest, I'm kinda embarrassed by the fact that I took it so negatively that time wtf. In fact, life is better now; I am happier and I laughed a lot (on people's misery and on being mean and bullying for a passion w00t).

Verdict: I lead a happier life.

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In 2010, I spent more time with friends, I made more friends, I hung out with more random people and I've seen more weird encounters. I'm closer to my college friends, and I date some wrong person because I agreed to hang out with almost anyone (of course they are all my friends). Damn it I even went to club with my lecturers and lab assistant and seen something inappropriate that I can never get it outta my mind anymore homaidog. I built friendships and I handle people better. I allow no one to mock me and belittle me. You may label me as immature but I hate it when people mock me for the fun of it. I can do better so I always gladly mock them back and made them feel humiliated in the end. Hah, take that! I learnt to be more angsty and fearful so nobody would attack my self confidence. Grr.

This is also the year where I realized the girls know what to do best when I'm at my worst state. Thankyou lovelies xoxo.

Verdict: It sounds bad. But I think it's a good thing. I give no two fucks to fuckfaces. I learnt to treasure a few who loves me ^_^ "Quality is better than quantity" - (Chen, 2010) *coughcough*

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2010 was definitely a year to be remembered; whether heart-throbbing or joyful, because it marks too many highlights in my life - especially it's my first year of adulthood. Now that it is already 2011, I'm going to be 22 in around a month or more. I can't believe I am gonna be 22, seriously! :( Let's hope I'm gonna pass my exams and graduate peacefully, get a job, pay all my debts, get a decently life and bring my parents eating things they really love. I know I'm not a religious person, but Buddha, Guanyinma, any god...Please bless my parents with good health and energy and happiness so I can bring them to sight-seeing, food travelling, anything. Just let them be healthy and happy. That is the least I am asking for.

Thank you.

For still reading this til the end.

LOL.

Goodbye I'm supposed to study now!

Breeding lipid

Time

to

cut

down

on

food.

....

orz

Weekly update

The way my week goes

Monstrous Monday 

Terrifying Tuesday

Wicked Wednesday 

Traumatized Thursday 

Fantastic Friday (weekends woohoo)

Sleeping Saturday (I sleep like real a lot nowadays boo)

Sucky Sunday (having Monday blues here)

Time to get back to work

I should be thinking about writing essays instead of nonsense like this. 

Bleh.

FOL

I don't understand.

Every woman, at least those who're still having their menses, 

will either have to change diapers for almost a week monthly, or to be fucked by all these cotton sticks.

So which will you choose?
Changing diapers and not having good night sleep for worrying about leakage,

or choose to be fucked by cotton sticks and worry about not able to take them off wtf

Fuck our lives.

They looked like bullets T______T

:(

I hate it when I'm feeling indecisive.
A part of me is telling me to do it and another part tries to stop me from doing it. It makes me feel like I have two souls living inside my body and both are actually struggling and competing to win over my 'body'. Damn.
Probably I'm feeling that way because I'm always thinking and I imagine too much.

It's really hard to decide what I should tell people and what I shouldn't. I'm afraid of being too naked and too mysterious at the same time. Perhaps I'm in a stage of growing up and not knowing what to do best.

Ironically, I like how each and every decision I made can change things into a total different way.
Life's amazing and unpredictable. I think I can write a book if I'm good in words and if I know how to express myself.

That's something I hate about myself. I wish I know how to express my feelings better, in words or in visuals.

I can't write a good script or produce a good film like this!!! :((

Menyampah.

Confused.

I think I just got myself a new bad habit. I tend to think overly too much when I'm alone at night especially when it's a quiet, silent night. I couldn't stop myself from thinking about it because it just comes naturally. Not that I thought about it intentionally :(

I always thought that despite I'm impatient and grumpy, I make wise decisions most of the time cos I'm calm and I think properly before making any hasty move. I always thought everything is gonna be fine as long as I stay calm and steady in any occasions. But now I think I'm wrong. It's like I'm trapped inside a super crazy drama scene right now. Ok maybe no that exaggerating but still! I don't see it coming!

It's hard to blog about something when I couldn't be honest and tell everything that I wanted here. I'm typing this for the sake of myself. It's so torturing to keep secret from everyone in the whole world. No, it's not the right thing to tell anyone. I still need a lot of time to adjust myself. How I wish all these didn't happen, especially in such short period. Sigh.

I was told I'm a very straight forward and honest person. But seriously, I never thought I'm THAT honest :x

Whee.

Fake is easy. Pffttt.

Anxious

I had too much fun during these 7 days. Each of them are very very carefully utilized. But yet, time is flying too fast and I can't believe I'm going to my industrial training tomorrow T_______T It wasn't anything big, but I demand rests and entertainment. 1 week is definitely not enough! Bleh.

26 Jan - Finished my last paper at 11am. Dyed my hair which the color didn't really show anyways FML.
27 Jan - Went up to GentingH all by myself bleh I rock.
28 Jan - Came back from Genting and slept one entire day at home.
29 Jan - Okm's birthday dinner.
30 Jan - Cousin wedding. Spent one entire day at kampung.
31 Jan - Company lunch. Jci's birthday party at night.
1 Feb - Woke up at 5pm. Rested at home. Now I'm gonna take my shower and force myself to sleep T_T

Anyhows. February is always my favorite month. Let's hope it's gonna be a good good month for me.
*prays

Hiatus

On a hiatus until next week cos I'm too tired juggling between jobs.

Guess what, I had 3 jobs today! wtfman srsly damn hardcore.

I'm now a 20 year old who look like a 30 year old D:

FML.

Sick

*sneezes



A big picture to scare you guys off.


No, it's not the swine flu!!!
I guess it's the lack of sleep for an entire week.
But the assignments are all done now yayyers

(I still have 2 more class presentations -_-)

Dusty

Believe it or not, this is actually my first time cleaning the CPU's fan O_o no wonder it always shuts down automatically! It's not completely clean yet cos I don't dare to disassemble the entire thing just in case I couldn't put it back ya i know i suck in dealing with computers T_T

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Chuck Bass: "I love you 2. I love you 3. I love you 4..."

aww//

Moolahhhhh where art thou!!

Nu dispic!



After sucky poppy.

It feels weird to see my own camho pic again after so long of not doing it.
I know my hair sucks that's why it's hard for you to see me without tying my hair.

I need a haircut badly. But I'm very broke.
read: VERY BROKE.


and I only had a greentea bun for lunch today :x
eh damn nyums got red bean inside :D

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Went all the way to DU for interview. Hopefully things will turn out to be better. *prayshard

Caffeine overdose.

A cuppa Nescafe and a bottle of essence of chicken.

Do me good. I got what I want.

I didn't sleep the entire night.

Until 8am, I slept and woke up at 12pm.

Paranoid.

Exams.

Relieved.

Home.

Still widely awake.

I fucked up my biological time.

I need help.


HELP!



And I've got another war to attend tomorrow.
I'm not exaggerating but this is like war man no time to rest at all fts



*panicking!



psst: DANIEL HENNEY AS DAVID NORTH IN COMING X-MEN ORIGINS XDXD

CLICK OK!!



This pic...doesn't do him any justice why he looked so ugly right here wtf
and what happened to his fingers T________T Oppa tell me who bullied youuuu~!!

ok i have to stop
this is fking insane!

I think I'll roll on the bed instead.

Red alert.

Fuck.

I spent a few hundreds again!!&!
Was expecting mom to nag at me but no she didn't and instead she likes it too *aawwww* Apparently women of all ages are vulnerable to shiny pretty things. No exception at all.

Got diamond one ok although my nose poo is bigger!!



I will never splurge again. I will never splurge again.
I will never splurge again. I will never splurge again.
I will never splurge again. I will never splurge again.
*repeats*
at least until next month!

p.s: I just embarrassed myself on a stage today. T_________________T I hate myself!

So here's the story, I went to LM with Michelle for McD. Funny; no other better places for McD? Long story lol. Apparently the Ultimate Group Power is promoting their finalists over there. Vic from italent was one of the finalists, and my junior Ash too. So I kinda went on stage to play a so called game with them; happens to be a 九连拍 watheff i suck in this and i looked fucking ugly, Mich captured my fuckface in camera. Please don't show it in TV plsplspls T__T Aaaaahhhhhdslkfjskjghkdgkh. I can't get over the fact that I went on a stage looking stupid and ugly and fat and everything not nice :( I already have very low self-esteem but the photos are not doing me any good and I don't know whether it's only me or what, but it seems like I get a lot of fingers pointing at me while I was in the mall after that T_____T Yalah I know I embarrassed myself pls dun torture me like that T_____T

Anyway, was glad that I went on stage cos finally I showed support to Vic after so long ahahahahaha anyway pls support 三点钟 for Vic or Friendz for Ash!!

Oh and I just saw YeeMin on TV just now T_T Astro Talent Quest finalist. My life is filled with talented people around me and I can only look at my toes T_________________T

I know I'm not talented and I'm not pretty T__T (That's why I don't camwhore anymore!!)
But I'm fucking nice aih not so nice now I'm worthless T___T

"我很丑，可是我很温柔" is not applicable to me T____________T

FML.

Ah.

Happy 20th sayang!



My "daughter" & My bimbo partner in crime (:

Damn pressured taking pic with her also.
Another limelight killer T_T
*pfft

The day is super boring today D: Everything trudged by slowly and it feels like forever to go through that freaking 4 hours in class D:

And my dad was actually sleeping when I was waiting for him to pick me up at the station T__________T watheff there goes my 45 mins being stung by 3 mosquitoes and stared by 1 nigga. So scary wtf he was driving a Kenari and he literally looked at the side (to me) instead of the front with the speed of approximately 15 km/h and then when he came down he showed gesture asking me to go to him wtf I pretended as if I'm blind and walked to the other end of the road T__________T Don't worry I'm still safe right now still can bingbang my keyboard!

Oh and I hate commuters who think they're so cool and their choice of music is the best.
This is the second time in a week I have to endure with loud sucky songs that they played using their cellphone's loudspeaker watheff last week it was some songs of other foreign language and that one was fucking annoying cos I didn't understand a single thing at all. It was so effing loud I have to stare at the man and he didn't notice my existence at all T___________T
Today, it's 2 young malay guys listening to emo songs it's forgivable la cos all the songs they played were Akon and Secondhand Serenade hahahaha but still!! T_____T

Please don't on loudspeaker to listen to music in any public places cos it's not cool at all D:
Instead it's very inconsiderate cos not everyone likes your shit.

Anyway I went to sleep at 8pm cos I have a very bad sleeping disorder, woke up at 12am wuhu I missed dinner! And I'm not hungry at all O_O! I slept at 2am last night, up at 4am, sleep at 6am again and then finally awake at 10am. See what's wrong with me seriously I need to plan my time!!

I'm wide awake now hopefully I can force myself to read through the stack of notes .__.

Tatahs.

Smartypants

Hideous.
I am the scriptwriter who writes script on the floor.

Done with the Pedra Branca presentation and I effing screwed up cos we're suppose to wear full formal attire and the smart casual is for the other presentation of the same subject haih

FML

I'm suppose to get 16/20 for my presentation but 1 mark got deducted cos I'm wearing semi-formal haih lesson learnt please read not only the question but also the others bingbongbiangthingamajig aaaahhh fuck it. Groupmate got a 18/20 and I'm jealous haih T_T

Reports and midterm coming up next week.

Submission of production and reports and presentation ala debate style next next week.

Radio production next next next week.

Seriously what the hell is this why everything is flying at the speed of lightttttt

D:

ok time to hardcore.

2100 lines //omg

ps: Went to the college gym for shooting and was enquire by a gym-guy. Classmate thought he is hot and asked if I know him. HAHAHA.

Updates

Went to classes finally after 3 days of class canceling marathon.
Everything went well on the first day of college, surprisingly.
For the first time ever, I was tolerate to almost everything.
*amazed*

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Anyhoos, yumcha with the bunch @ Snow Beer place.
Please experience snow beer yourself and be ready to utter "Chehhhhhhh"
-_- It's very freaking lame.
Yes I know. But somehow people always like something different.

Eh, the new love is the 'hum yuk' :D!




The pic is originally in b&w to hide hideous pores.

This is the nicest camwhore pic among 9234894384 other ones.
I lose touch in camwhoring!!
I don't know my best smile/best angle/best pose anymore!!!

FML



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I'm going to N9 tomorrow.

And results is coming out the day after I'm back in KL.
shit, I'm scared.

-_-||

Hai Remy.

Guess what.
From lizards to earthworms. And now there's Remy in my house' toilet bowl.
-_________-


All of us jumped when we heard Mrs Lim screaming in the toilet


Ofcos my sis is much more prettier than the emoticon!!


It came from the hole and it swam back in after awhile of attempting to climb out from the toilet bowl. Mind you it's a toilet bowl, not those squatting ones.

So grossssss D:


Thank god sista is okay *phews*.




psst: if you watched Rattatouille, Remy is a rat.

Dusty woman.

I tried cleaning the stupid blinder or whatever you called it and I failed *cry
Wipe with wet/dry cloth, attacked with vacuum cleaner, and wet cloth again.
Fuck -_- it's still there *angry
The dust is too thick and it sticks there wtf biarla stick til dia mati eh dust cannot mati one not germs T_T

My bed now :D

SUPER CUTE AHAHAHAHA
It's just coincidence okay I didn't buy all these!!

Oh the pink thing at the window (not the tofu/pig wtf) T_T is the stupid dusty crap. But anyhow it looks clean in this pic *aww*

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I was veryveryverysuperduper sleepy until I saw this. So creepy @@

imuhpc T_T

Hi :(

I'm still alive, barely kicking.

I'm trying to copy all the notes into small piece of papers and stuck it in my shirt/pants/shoes and read them during toilet trips in the middle of exams wtf.

I was kidding.

Blehhh.