Dear baby aviator. We love you :"(

R.I.P our Porsche aviator.

It was my first present for taisiu 

:((

Lost it afterwards. 

We're very sure we didn't misplace it. For sure it has been pick-pocketed. 

And funny it was hanging right in front of my chest. 

Screw you, anyone who took it. 

You will pay. 

I miss the sunnies :((((

Upset tummeh

Had the worst chicken ever at Malones the other day. 

That's taisiu treat for my results bwahaha though it wasn't really impressive but I'm happy with it ^_^ *contented*

Anyways back to the chicken, it's an Irish menu so I didn't really like the taste. Forgotten about the name and I remember it has mustard and whisky in the sauce oh god I'm not interested in writing about an awful food wtf. The gravy was so oily and salty and I kinda hate it. Didn't finish the dish because the chicken freaking flew out of my plate and landed on my bag. (Ok what I meant here is I was having a hard time cutting the chicken ;____; ) And the bag is my birthday present from him omg orz the horror. I felt sooo bad that it ruined my mood ;(

Paranoid of not being able to wash it off cos it has oil! Went to washroom twice to get rid of it but it's still there....

Came home and washed for several times because I'm convinced that the oil is still there D:

Anyways it's not visible unless I took a picture of it with flash. So it's kinda hard for me to estimate where exactly is that stupid spot :(

Sigh. 

I hope it's clean now. Too tired to look at it again.

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Oh yes. Other than that, I think my tummy rejects this dish and I had stomachache for 2 days fts. It's not the stomachache where you can just go to toilet and do your business and feel relieved wtf. It's like you've been lying down too long on your stomach and you feel the burden on your stomach. Something like that. I tried swallowing pills and putting minyak angin cap kapak and drinking chinese tea and green tea and warm water. But seriously, nothing beats the weirdly tasted boiled coke with ginger.

LOL.

orz

PMS

SORE GUMS

THICK ARTICLES IN RANDOM FONT AND HANDWRITING TO READ ON.

GOSH.

FATTY BUMBUM

I'm hungry. 

Therefore I think of food.

But I feel fat when I thought of it.

I tried stopping myself from thinking about food.

But I can't because I'm hungry.

Emo fuck upon looking at my own reflection in the mirror. 

HLF

Because I know I have a very short temper and I get angry very easily once someone stepped on my borderline between OK and NOT OK. Despite my anger goes down quite fast, I still do not like to feel angsty over something; which is why I don't even like to listen to the same pathetic complains and rants every single fucking day. It makes me feeling angry too when I'm around angry people. If you can take all the time in your life complaining to me why don't you do something for your own good omfg. It's okay to complain once in a while when you really feel bad about it. I don't mind listening at all. But it's really that bad when the complain becomes angsty and you're like scolding everyone around you. WTF?

Please live a happier life because it's fucking unhealthy to be angry over every small things in your life =_=!

I know, some of you may think I am a hypocrite and whatever I type here can be used on myself.
Um, if you know me well, I don't get angry over the slightest things. So stop saying I need anger management or something. I don't need it.

Filmaniac.

Helluva!

I'm here typing cos I'm in the midst of waiting my videos rendering :( I wish I have a macbookpro or final cut pro now T_T I don't know why is my rendering sooooo slowwwww!! I'm using my dear HP Pavilion DV2 and Adobe Premiere Pro btw.

I'm doing a film analyzing video on "Mother" or 마더. Directed by Joon-ho Bong (The Host)
Watched it yesterday during break time and damn, film analyzing is so tiring I have to pay attention to every single detail and it kinda worn me out since I had long classes yesterday. Storyline is so twisted I got mislead and wrongly assumed the ending lol! Here's the trailer. It has Won Bin in it!



Anyways, gonna submit this on Friday 12pm sharp. Where the hell I have time for it if rendering and editing is sluggy wtf and I have to finish arranging my clips before I do my voiceover! Fuckityfuck :((!

Have another film cinematography review report to passup this Friday 10am. Gonna watch "The Good, The Bad, and The Weird" for the third attempt lol! Failed for the first two times cos the opening was so serious I wanna die.

Guess what, my progress now is like 1% thanks to the slow rendering :(

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Anyway, I really hate chatting over the phone with people whom I don't miss at all and I don't get why they still call to talk to me despite I told them I don't really like it and I did give them a 'dead-air' conversation most of the time -.- And now I have to come up with lame excuses. Please call me at the wrong timing I love it :D Michelle told me that I'm getting meaner nowadays. Good. I'm a changed person and I know I'm changing for good. Omm.  

Getting back to work cos I ran out of words to say and I've got no new pictures - eventhough Andy's dslr is here with me. Heheh.

updates: I got only 68% for this assignment T_T

Another bad day.

It is another bad day today. Fuck. I hate June! :(
I'm so angry I'm not gonna construct proper sentences pfft.

1) Slept only 45 minutes last night cos I was rushing 2 assignments. Today is the submission day.

2) Went to 9am class and slept through my lecture. FML never get to listen or copy anything at all. Thank god for the invention of voice recorder in my phone.

3) I'm bleeding wtf and bleeding means major discomfort and carrying a laptop bag around is definitely not helping to soothe the mood.

4) Was supposed to get the camera for our news shooting today but FOL it was raining and we had to wait for almost an hour.

5) Proceeded with shooting process but FOL again cos there was nothing for us to shoot. I mean, the news is about the price increase of sugar. But no sugar spotted in 10 minimarts we went in. And bigger marts didn't allow us to do shooting :(

6) Gave up. Shoot only one minor insert footage. Planned to go back college for class after resting. It was 5pm then. Got an sms from classmate that class is cancelled cos the lecturer is stuck in jam in Kuala Selangor cos it was flooding. Class is supposed to start at 6pm. It's Week 7 now and he only conducted lecture twice.

7) Fine. Took the train home. Had to wait for my BIL for 40 minutes and I almost teared waiting cos I was sooo tired I kept on falling asleep on the bench at bus stop :(

8) Came home and there was some naggy annoyance.


I almost snapped but thank god for the creation of earphones.
This is seriously testing my patience T_T


It's a messed up day I really hate wtf HAIH

Snipsnaps

Sometimes I love visiting the saloon and let the hairstylist do something to my hair :D

But the experience of visiting lower end saloon never stop traumatizing me. I will not cut my hair for RM15 or so anymore cos what I paid is what I get D: Cheap haircut. Not that I will pay super a lot for professional cuts or anything but the average one will be fine.

Thankgod my hairstylist this time did not fail. I think he works as a magician secretly or something pfft.

Look! My hair looks so bouncyyy! awww 

I loveee bouncy light hair but too bad I don't naturally born with nice hair :(

Trying to keep my hair long now so it can weights down the hair and hopefully it will not go frizzy like a bear anymore :(

Had dinner at Cravings @ Sunway Giza. No pics cos my camera battery died and I didn't charge.

Regretting it. Pfft.

Today marks a very bad day cos I think I did several good deeds and at the end of the day, I had to endure the sight of a young man digging his nose for 10mins with 8 of his fingers, put the nosepoop together, then studying it.

FML.

I arrived at the saloon earlier with Khen. Cyn and okm came later.
Guess what, I was abandoned for half of the session despite I came earlier than them :(

Cyn has long locks, okm dyed his hair. But both of them took shorter time than me to get a damn haircut T_T

Was abandoned badly in the saloon.

:(

But the anger totally fades off after seeing my hair being so obedient pfft.

Other than helping the disabled, getting nice haircut, and meeting up...I wasn't happy at all!

Fangry again.

Wanted to rant over Twitter but this stupid whale kept on appearing telling me that Twitter is over capacity -_- I'm not going to FB cos I didn't want 500+ people paying attention to me.

Bah.

Let's hope this blog is low profile enough.

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Regarding to my earlier post this afternoon, I was waiting at McD Midvalley for a job training at 6pm at Cititel Hotel. I skipped a class and I really wanted the job cos I'm broke to the max fml T_T But guess what happened! Okm and I walked over to the hotel lobby and sat there when he finally noticed he has a misscall at 5pm, and a text from the agent saying "Edwand, please call me back." Being the usual him, he ran out of credit and used my phone to call the agent instead. She knew that we're working together so she can just contact either one of us if there's anything. Okm made the phone call and here's the fucked up part.

She said she's got something to do and the training is going to be postponed to tomorrow, 6pm.

My first reaction; "WHAT THE FUCK? I'm not gonna fucking work for her anymore."

Seriously, if she hates people giving her empty promises and disappears last minute for her job, why the fuck she is doing this? I mean, come on we drove all the way to MV, petrol, parking fees, time, and my 2 hours lecture are now gone wasted =_=

I told her yesterday that I'm going to take the train at 5pm to go MV and she insisted that I shouldn't be late and so. If she couldn't contact okm, why didn't she call me instead? She forwarded the job sms to me first so it's impossible that she don't have my number.

I don't care. I'm not gonna tolerate this anymore.

She drags payment all the time. I waited for half a year before she pay me last time. I guess Jess and Cyn knows better too arggghhh.

She expects a hell lot from all her promoters but please don't expect much from her. Promoters are equally the same as you okay. Your RM120 per day is not a friggin big amount to treat people like shit okay. Please at least be considerate?

All my other job agents know about her and her bad habit -_-

I'm still angry! Haven't tell her that I'm not going to the job training tomorrow. Fuck it. She likes canceling on people last minute, I'm giving her what she likes to do the most. Pfft.

Had a call from a cameraman from the internship company; asking me to work this weekend. I might as well work as a cameraman assistant. It's much more better than working my ass off for a person like her. 

:(

I know, my temper is getting worse recently.
But I just hate being taken as granted.

I'd rather listen to Ryan's stupid comments over msn. At least he gives me moolah almost every month.

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Bloody Hell

What the fuck.

I just recover from cough and now my laptop is infected with virus!

This mofo virus eats up all my files and they went missing mysteriously. Including my subs! And I need to submit that particular episode immediately! Thankgod Ryan was nice enough although we always fight T_T Sorry Ryan you're the besttttt!

And thankgod I only need to redo 2 episodes T_T
Okay actually one cos I figure I did one the previous night and one more in the morning. But I don't care la cos 2 of them went missing! Right in front of my own eyes! It was quite short and I managed to finished both in 90 minutes.

Amitabha.

Not only did I panic upon realizing my files are missing.

I kinda yelled at everyone in the store cos they can't stop disturbing me and thought it was really fun to poke at me and wave in between my eyes and the laptop screen.

I showed my anger...

T_T And I looked ridiculous cos I need to apologize to everyone after that and pretend that I was possessed by some angry soul instead T_T

I fell asleep while waiting for my brother to get home. And when I woke up, right now...it's 2am and he's already sleeping T_T_T_T_T_T Since I'll be in JB this Thursday, let's hope he's gonna fix this mess before Saturday comes T_T

FML max. T_T

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你要等到一切都太迟了才甘愿吗？

Dramarama

Why am I always not the first place?

I tried so hard and yet all I get is disappointment. Sometimes I really didn't wanna go on anymore. But I couldn't give up just like that.

I didn't wanna elaborate. But, I hope you know what I meant. That is if you are even bothered reading this.

FML

I don't care if this is pms or what. There's something making me angry every single day. So angry I wanna tear something apart and runaway hysterically aaa//

EVERY SINGLE DAY. I'm not kidding you!

Okay being the typical me I'll just list them out T_T I'm effing sleepy right now I should be studying but I got bored by the crazy exam timetable it's so hectic T_T_T_T_T

1) My ipod's wifi is not working at home!

I got it for barely a month. Got pwned by the awesomeposumness of being able to online mobile at home. And now it can't even connect to the damn wifi anymore. It was okay until my bro set password for the connection. I keyed in the password right for like god knows how many times. Impossible I typed it wrong for 348659428592 times right D: Ok it did connected after I tried a lot of time religiously. But it lasted for like, 10 minutes before it goes poof again. I'm sooo sad riighttt nooowwww nobody cannnn hellp meeeeeee!

FML.

2) Got forced doing something I didn't really like or want to do. For life. watheff man I hate this shit T_T

3) Connection sucks balls. Seriously. I can't even load Twitter page without getting pissed off!

4) I'm now sitting at home eating things I don't feel like eating but I ate it anyways cos I have the need to nom on something to settle me down while studying. I'm accumulating fats on my body. T_T

5) Wore my super comfy shoes to college today. New shoes. And the sky chose to rain today. Seriously whats wrong with shoes and the weather ! It always rain when I'm wearing new shoes! suckstothemax T_T

6) My hair is very ugly right now. 6 months untrimmed. No nothing. It looks like a damn broom. T_T

7) I've got swollen gums cos I fucked up my biological time. Body acting not normal right now. Skipped dinner cos I'm frustrated having to endure with the pain wtf rather not eating.

8) My mom said I'm fat.

Enough lah 8 fuckitiesfuck still not enough. Minus the exam papers! D:

It's more than enough to make me angry already T_T

edit//

I fixed my ipod's connection! Haih router's settings :(

watheff..

I was really angry the other night! (forgotten which)
Digi failed on me. I can't send any text messages or make any calls.
Streamyx hates me. I couldn't even load any pages without feeling angry.
Even TNB sucks ducks. 2 electricity cut in a night. Brilliant.

All happened when I was being hardworking trying to finish off my work using my laptop.
Poor baby got shut down twice cos I didn't plug in the battery :(
Thank god I have a habit of saving my works even if it's half done :)!

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Anyway, new pictures from last week!

I think this is the first time I post so many pics of myself pfft

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I like this T_T
But I saw someone else in this picture -_-!




Excuse the hair parting!



My fav angle. Back shot w00t.



Out of focus. But still likeable.



My eyes. Rawr.

Okay these should be enough.
I didn't wanna blind anyone hehehaha wtf

My precious RM70

Ｉf you still remember, Ｉ hit the edge of my bed frame a few weeks ago and it hurt my leg even until now.

Furthermore, it's swollen and I think there's pus inside =.=

My mom's been nagging me to see the doctor and I reluctantly pulled my lazy ass to the clinic today since okm is here. Instead of going to the usual doctor, I asked okm to turned to the other direction instead because I kinda forget the place already so I randomly picked one clinic that looks good enough appearance wise.

Went inside.

No nurse. Only a girl around 16 to 17 years old with her school uniform at the reception.
The doctor wasn't even wearing her medical robe or something.
And she was on Facebook.
She didn't even treat my leg. Just gave me antibiotics and some cream.
Then she took away my RM70. Claiming she already gave me a discount since I told her I'm still a student. The pre-discounted price was....RM75.

Watheff?

That's why I am always reluctant to see a doctor. Bloody suckers.

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Eric told me that the tube of cream was only RM5, or less cos he's selling it for his company.

fuck.

Ugly flying fock

I was pretty relaxed and calm after giving tuition to the kid. Then I went to my room for my towel, happily dancing my way to the shower wtf I was kidding.

Came back to my rusty yet trusty pc, just to be welcomed by a mofo cockcroach. FTS. I never realized it until I heard the sound of its wings flapping FUCK THIS SHIT I'm very very sensitive to the sounds made by pest especially insects UGHHHH

Guess what I turned into an angsty woman just because of a stupid roach. Hit it hysterically. I meant it literally until my dad had to ask me what happened wtf The sad part was I hit it with the newspaper I'm suppose to read later T__________T FUCK BETUL I HATE YOU STUPID COCKFUCKROACH. Now I can't read it anymore. Happy?!

Ok back to the sonofabitch.
It died. Ok except it was kicking air and I ignored it and left it there until I decided what to do with it ftw I was thinking whether to throw it in the bin or flush it in the toilet aww what a tough decision! -_-

I tried to scoop it with a piece of paper. That bugger is too heavy. Mission FAILED.
Then I went to get a dustpan and a broom. Flipped it over and IT FUCKING STARTED TO CRAWL EVERYWHERE. CABAI. WTFWTF.
Squashed it hit it baby one more time ok died. Don't care.

Finally it is flushed away peacefully all along with my shit of the day.


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Talking about cockroaches just gonna make me angry.

I'm posting your damn fuckface to humiliate you.
In black and white some more!

What?
You must be having bad karma that's why you're a damn roach now.
I'm ending your life earlier so you can reincarnate faster to a better life. Pfft.

Farnie hunny

I find this funny.
Pay RM25 or enjoy staying in jail for 14 days. Lol?
Verdict: You need to pay for cross dressing.

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And oh, another moron in the train, and it's crowded!

You might be thinking he just wanted to tie his shoelaces but sorry no he's been putting that bag there and do something else before he really ties his shoelaces. As if people around him are transparent or what. Even if no one is taking that seat, it's still not right to put stuffs there just cos you THINK no one is gonna sit. And most people won't ask you to remove it when they wanna sit. It's pretty damn awkward.

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Had test today. Was okay. And I realized I have 1 thesis, 1 law research, and 1 marketing assignment to due on 2 weeks from now. fts @@.

Over normal body temperature

I was sitting right opposite of these 2 gay looking men who occupied the entire row of 4 seats, looking like this. And they seemed to sit closer to one another over the time @@ Trust me, I was on the train for around 30 minutes and they stared at the train tix longer than that but it seems like a gimmick to me cos their pinky is connected WTF eh damn selfish ok i hate commuters like this *angry
Somemore I took the courtesy to blur their face!
(But another guy force his way in for the seat on the left later hahaha *evil)

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Ran home in the rain. Umbrella ko-ed but found out it's still useable after I'm home fml.
And I think I had a fever now :(
My pc is bullying me haih it has its own angin cos sometimes the screen will go blackout and make continuous annoying beeps T_T or perhaps something something is crashed or not found T_______T I need a laptop srsly.

Fatigue.

Someone need to tell the lecturer to stop abusing us with stacking homeworkloads. I don't want any homework. I'm okay with tutorial questions but not HOMEWORK. It takes me an entire week to finish a set, and then I won't have any extra time to deal with my thesis and assignments and even rest.

I have no intention of hating this paper but it's testing my patience level omg and I admit I don't have any patience! Lecture at 10 on Monday and I have to wait another mofo 4 hours for the tutorial at 4pm and it always ended late! Not because there's too much to teach but the lecturer didn't organize her time well

T_____________________T

I wanted to tell her so badly but I have a feeling that she won't listen.

aaa//

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Independence Day

I was lazy to blog. The last paper was on Friday and I didn't go anywhere cos I'm effing broke now. Like seriously, broke to the extent that I only have 15 bucks in my wallet fts thank god it's holidayssss now I'm on a job hunting season.

But anyways went Poppy yesterday and I officially hate the place now. Wait, it's the people there and the night was ruined badly. Stupid fucker who stole Patricia's phone. Why must they do this while everyone just wanna have fun in clubs dancing the night away T_T Sighhhhh.

I'm so sorry I couldn't do a thing. at. all.

:(((

And fuck all cibais who like to steal stuffs.
Seriously what's wrong with them pls go and beg somewhere instead of making people's life miserable D: I've have enough friends gotten rob/something got stolen/etc by this bunch of assholes yes I'm angry cos nobody can do a thing to them right now they're fucking cunning and fast.


talking about this just makes me angry.

and helpless.

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Anyway, something happened to me on that night too I don't know what happened and the pain is unbearable, I couldn't breathe and it's killing me slowly until I was able to hide in toilet cos it's quiet there. I'm okay now but it's not the first time happening. Not sure what is the cause but, I think I'm alright.

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Went to Hanxin Academy Screening Ceremony today.
It's an academy of the same field as mine, but they're based in Chinese and ours is in English.
They invited us to attend to the screening of their final year projects and production and damn, they're good D:

*jealous



Booklet of the list of short films and MV.

Ok. Time to go. I'm gonna stop torturing my eyes. Too much reading.